Wednesday 18 July 2007

In a relationship why do people always want to open the ex-files?

In a relationship do we have to go backwards to go forwards?, because it seems that we want to know about the past and it seems that we can't go forward without knowing what we have in the past it's like having a wound that won't heal and sometimes we go overboard in wanting to know what our partners did in the past and in a way it starts to ruin the relationship because people have this hole that needs to be filled but what if your past brings up memories which should be left were they were buried so it causes more problems than it solves. Are we that curious that we have to compare ourselves with everyone else they have had?

But it still doesn't answer the question why do people bring up the past, Is because we all feel insecure about what that person has done before and whether they have seen and done better so there is always this doubt in your mind, this little voice asking you have you done the right thing?

But is this the only reason????? Can people really want to know what went on in their partners past??? Do we all want a sense of control about what went on????

After asking Julian and Sarah-Lee from The George, Julian said he would open them up so he could get a sexual rise out of his partner, which would lead to an arguement, and 9/10 times it would also lead to make-up sex and use what he know to help him, give his partner what they wanted.

There are so many questions on the reasons why people are hell bent on knowing the past but in trying so hard to see the past do we see forget to look ahead of us?

Some people say that this baggage can help in early conversations about what we talk about in relationships as we use are ex’s to say what we want in the future, however do we know when to stop, or do people know when to stop asking and digging?

But even with all these questions will we ever know when to open and close are ex-files?

Decisions

We all make them, the big ones and the little ones, but are we ever sure if we made the right ones?

I have had many friends on the phone or e-mail to me asking whether they are doing the right choice about what they are doing with their lives or their relationships, as lately Nicky, has been doing a lot of this, calling me up at all hours of the day with her relationship with Matt, and it's taken me five longs months to try and convince her to leave him, and go out there and find new life, however as this is Nicky she rarely takes any advice, So this is why it has taken fives months to try and get her to see sense and stop sleeping with him, every time he says that he loves her, (As most girls and guys know that when an ex says this they are looking for a shag, plain and simple), But finely now I hope that she has seen the light as she found some new guy, to play with, that she doesn't go back with him, as I can't do another five months being on the phone three times a day at least about the same relationship!

However some choices we make don't need advice just the gentle listening ear, as they voice their doubts, for example Jonny, had a medical to try and get into the police service, but had doubts about whether he should go and do it, deep down he knew what he was going to do, its just the consequences of what his choice brought gave him doubt in the decision that he was going to make.

As all decisions and choices that we make in life bring around consequences, and unfortunately they are not always good! and we have to deal with these consequences and try to fix what we broke or enjoy the rewards that they bring! However consequences can have a big effect on what we do, and what choices we make, so do these consequences that will come make are minds up for us? So in light of this we would always go for the choice that would be good for us even if it is the wrong choice.

Do we now live in a world, that we will always go for the good consequences even if it is the wrong decision or choice, because we are to scared about the consequences of the choice?

Monday 25 June 2007

Fave Songs of All Time!!!!!!

These are my most favourite songs of all time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

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Sunday 27 May 2007

Internet Dating

Anyone of us who has been online, has found or been on to a dating website, and many of us just for the fun of it will sign up, to see what it's all about or trying a new site from one you used to use.

But is it easier to find men online or is it easier to find them in the street???, as I have been and tried both for many years and I am some of my friends would defiantly agree with doing both part, it still doesn't answer the fatal question, is it easier to find men online??

As we are all doing it now, we are buying all of our goods online, food, accessories, furniture, because it saves us time and effort, but with the amount of dating sites out there, it is become easier and easier to find one over the waves, all you have to do is find the one you like best and then send the message and then hope they message back, but you can put in searches with everything you want and it will come up with all of the qualities you look for in a man, so by doing this you are coming up with the perfect man for you aren't you?!

So you think it would be easier to be able to find this Mr Right we are all obsessed with finding, and doing both I can actually say that sometimes the searches lie as they don't know the people they ,match you up with all they know is there stats of what you like not who they are which would be the big down fall, as some of them are real assholes or complete liars in what they say!

Would it be safe to say no matter how you do your dating, we will always be unsure of what we are doing? and always be to picky in what we want? Are the people in society today always looking for the easier dating option, and becoming to lazy to go out there and be pro-active to find the so-called one?

Thursday 17 May 2007

Booking Through Thursday #3

Where DON’T you read??

ummmmm.....................there aren't many places I don't read, anywhere is open really, and it does help sometimes when you do have a book infront of you!!!!!

Wednesday 16 May 2007

Thursday Thirteen #7


Thirteen Things of the most annoying songs



1…. Barbie Girl

2.... The ketchup song

3.... Waterloo

4.... Crazy Frog

5.... Wannabe

6.... Baby One More Time

7.... These boots are made for walking

8.... The Chicken Dance

9....Copacabana

10.... Who Let The Dogs Out

11.... It's A Small World

12.... We Like To Party

13.... Hey Baby


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Monday 14 May 2007

Age of Deception

Nowadays numbers don't mean a lot but mix them with people and you have a huge problem.

Yes ladies and gentlemen, I am talking about age. The one thing people will either Love or Hate.

In my experience people nowadays say that age is just a number, which say what you can or cannot do in the eyes of the law. Also everyone is always adding or taking away a few years, whether it's to make you younger and older. Everyone has done it.

But when it comes to relationships is it better to be honest or lie? I found out over the weekend amongst the string of high class parties, the dancer David that I am seeing lied about his. Even though it was only four years, it still but him in a different age box in the game we call life.

The problem is when he told m, I was very drunk, however immediate thoughts of Pete came rushing through my head, even though it wasn't a major difference. But it does get your mind going, if they start to lie about this, it puts doubts into your head. If they can do it about the age, what else can they string you along with.

Is Age the beginning of a series of mistrusts and lies?

Thursday 10 May 2007

Thursday Thirteen #6


Thirteen Most Sung Karaoke Songs



1…. Summer Nights

2.... American Pie

3.... Bohemian Rhapsody

4.... I Got You Babe

5.... Sweet Dreams

6.... I Will Survive

7.... Like A Virgin

8.... Angels

9.... Dancing Queens

10.... Kiss Me

11.... Baby One More Time

12.... If I could Turn Back Time

13.... Can't Fight The Moon Light


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Wild Fire

We all wish we could get that extra inch in ....... but also life, As today I sat in the a straight/punk pub (Which Yes is very strange for me, But I needed a story) and as I was chatting to James I found that, he knew a lot of the people I did, and I had never met him before, and he told me a few things that not even I knew.

Brighton once a year still holds the largest Pride festival of the UK, with last years total, reaching over the 1/4 million mark, and only 15'000 of them are regulars to the area, which would seem like a very large "community", but when you put it in how many people you see out and about, that you know in passing or are friends with, there never seems that amount of people around.

So obviously the gay world isn't as large as we would all think it is, so what do we do when we get nick names and known for the stuff you would rather have forgotten, for example, I heard about Josh and his over irate conversation, about HIV/AIDS. Which I hope I get to know the rest of that story, as some mad girl came over and sat on me, saying I knew her, when we went to Revenge personally I can't remember her for shit but there you go. So I never got to hear the end. SO will someone always know you from somewhere and know things that you did or would do, without evening meeting you or asking if it were true?

We all remember the school days, that if you told a secret to a friends practically the whole school knew within an hour what had been going on, but as I dragged my lonely ass back to the bus stop to get it home, I sat there and wondered did we ever get over that fact, when we left? As some random girls who had obviously been trying to get into clubs and such, that night were doing the eternal gossip, the "did you hear" or "did you see".

It Makes you wonder when we left a school like world did we take our tendencies with us to tell the world what we know?

Are we all still really big kids?


Booking Through Thursday #2

Booking Through Thursday

No, not THAT kind of R.I.P.
Reading. In. Public.
Do you do it? Why or why not? I do read in public, however it has to be some where you can as sometimes it doesn't always work in a pub, but a park, bus, train places like that I do. It does mean you don't have to listen to random strangers, that sit next to you.

Wednesday 2 May 2007

Thursday Thirteen #5


Thirteen Things People Could Do Without!!!!



1…. People who are to intense.

2.... Abusive people.

3.... Controlling People

4.... LIARS.

5.... Bad Sex.

6.... Bad Kisser. (Come on face it, if they are shit at that then you are fucked)

7.... Rudeness

8.... Drinking and Dialing. (Even though we have all done it)

9.... Your friends who call you up on the one day you have off, Crying about there relationships.

10.... For us single people, our non-single friends who go on about there relationships.

11.... People who don't accept anyone Else's opions.

12.... People that lead you on.

13.... Ex's who still try to rule your life.

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Sunday 29 April 2007

The Weird Weekend

Well what can I say my weekend, was different, Friday my ex Pete came to town and we shared a hotel room together for the first time, we also went out for the first time together, we did so many things that we would have never done while we were together, the most important getting very very drunk and and dancing and doing other extra circular activities, which is never good when you are in the morning after the night before mode. But there were things that I did remember.

Like seeing Richard and his new boyfriend, and you know they know you are there, so they start to do things that make you notice them more like blank you, even when you do a near head on collision, with them and then when you are dancing with friends you bump into they start to practically have sex on stage, just for your entertainment, and stop the moment you walk away.

Then there was Darren and his new thing for the night, as he doesn't do boyfriends at the moment, he does a pound of flesh.

So why is it that every ex you have looks better than you do, no matter if people tell you, you are fabulous, they just seem to have that edge that you don't, dear god even Pete looked better than he did the last time I saw him.

But looking back as Pete did bring up a good point, he has never known or seen me, with a guy that can truly control me, which makes you wonder about youth today in all relationships, are we the uncontrollable generation?


Friday 27 April 2007

Right Now I Am So F***ed Off

I am so fucked off right now, as I have just been conned out of a phone, and money has gone out of my account earlier than it should have. So I am very broke right now and I am supposed to me going out to night as well and I have no idea what I am going to be doing.

Also why is it when you are feeling very low, every tom, dick, harry and their uncle decide it would be a good idea to phone you, and they all ask for your advice on their relationships or their business problems. But you have to be nice because they are you friends, but all you really want to do is just tell them to fuck off, because you are not in the mood to talk to people.

I Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr the world right now, and even no I can't hit anything as I have to look after and cook for a 12 year old. Then I have to get ready to go out and have dinner with my 2nd ex fiance oh the joys of being loved.


Thursday 26 April 2007

Booking Through Thursday

Booking Through Thursday


  1. Does what you read vary by the season? For instance, Do you read different kinds of books in the summer than the winter? Not really I tend to be a romance kind of guy or psychological thriller
  2. If so, do you break it down by genre, length of book, or...? doesn't matter really it's a good blub I will probablt just read it anyway LOL

LAUGHS OF THE DAY

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Heaven Through Me, And Hell Just Toke Me Whole

What would you do if the guy you were seeing,after you said that 4 letter word, said lets take a break a step back, and we see if we can get there, then a couple of days later you look him, up online and you see that he is already in another relationship, with a bloke I never knew existed, even though I saw it and I read it, I could read it. But as it sunk in, my heart hit the floor, and I had to stop myself from being really sick. I haven't felt like that in years, even now looking back on that time, I still get the feeling of falling.

Even approaching the subject with him, he could even say it to me then, just gave me excuses why he couldn't, tell me, which hurts even more. Since then I haven't spoken to him since, although I had to phone tizzie, and hit a few things really hard, and nearlly broke the kitchen counter.

So since I have then I have worked really hard, and not done alot else until, my ex sends me messages, saying do you want to meet up for dinner and a night out, so we shall were I end up.

God What am I doing???????


Thursday Thirteen #4


Thirteen Things you should never say in relationships



1…. Your bum looks huge in that.

2.... I love you mother more than you.

3.... I slept with your best friends.

4.... We need to talk.

5.... (Two weeks in) Your sister coming up and says "when you getting married"

6.... (A month in) Lets have a baby.

7.... Do you want to meet my wife?

8.... My Friends hate you!

9.... You look like Bridget Jones in the morning. (Yes people have said this)

10.... I don't want a relationship, then you find out, a couple of days later he is in another one.

11.... I want you to tie me up. (This only works in certain relationships)

12.... NAGGING. This should never be done in a relationship.

13.... I think we should see a therapist.

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Friday 20 April 2007

If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time

If You could turn back the hands of time, would you undo, what was, to change what is????

Well Wednesday night, after waiting half an hour, and having to listen to blokes obviously having sex, problem was the fact that you could probably here them for space, and by the sound of it, it wasn't enjoyable. So anyway he turns up, and we drive to the beach again, although this is the unhappy part of the beach, where all our serious conversations and home truths come out.

So he is trying to tell me what he wants, and like a true man, (Yes we all know he is gay, but even we can have straight manly moments), he is making no sense what so ever, all I can feel is my heart sinking to the floor, and my head going I told you so, which by the is not a good feeling. However, I finally get part of the point he is trying to make, he wants to go out meet new people, go on dates, go up to random men in a bar and ask them, if they want a drink, and he could do it with a guy in his life, or relationship in his life. (Confused, well guess what so am I still), but I do understand, and I know where I fit into that whole life style, I sit on the side lines and watch him, do it, and then try if I can protect him, when it gets ugly, because of him being in relationships most of his gay life, I am not sure he really knows whats out there that could bite him on the ass (And not in a good way).

So after this conversation we decide to head back well he drove, and said i will text you soon, which most of the time that's code for I am never going to see you again. So I got the new version of "it's not you it's me", also the new version of "Can we still be friends". Just to top that, when I got in I was moaned at leaving my straighteners, on the drawers to cool down, and my laptop being on the table, when Life loves you it really does have a way of showing it. don't you just love it. LOL

Song of the Day

Wednesday 18 April 2007

Rabbit Caught In Head Lights

What would you say the worst thing that could happen to you, when you and the guy you are seeing have sort of just sorted things out, and I don't really know how they did, it just sort of happened, I got told if he starts to freak out just to tell him to shut up and move on. which yes I would but even still I am now I am a Heartless Bitch, but I am not careless, so I would have some issues telling them what to do, in the messing with there emotions side of life.

I also gave him a secret today that, also by writing it here I am also announcing to the world, that I have never not once done any form of PDA (Public Displays of Affection) with anyone, I am come across as confident and able to handle anything in the world but I have never done that, well until Friday then, I really came out of the shell with no neon sign and and did the whole walking down the middle of Brighton, holding a guys hand, kissing in public and lying on the beach, and lying with someone. Which at the time made me look around and see who else really did what we were and do you know apart from the lying down an the beach thing, I saw less than a dozen couples of all sexuality's doing the exact same thing, so what does this say are we to scared to go out into the open and let people see who we are really with? or is that we are not comfortable with everybody watching the close couple walking down the street? Also noticing that nearly nine out of ten people will look at a couple holding hands, kissing in public, and want to know why they can't do it.

Also I have majorly digressed, I truly had a Kodak moment today, as the man in question (You know who you are) and I got caught, having sex in the living room, which would have not been good, its one thing for people you know to see you do it, but its also worse if it's a member of the family about to walk through the door and catch you in "the act" (Trying to be polite), so his face really did look like a bunny caught in head lights, so after he quick dressing and the small pleasantries he fled, going commando of course as he forgot to put his boxers back on.

Although I did get reminded today of a saying in which we should all follow, but all know we never will.

DANCE
As though no one is watching you.
SING
As though no one can hear you.
LOVE
As though you have never been hurt before.
LIVE
As though heaven is on earth.
Anyway at gone 3 A.M. I must try and sleep, otherwise people are going to have to get their irons out, just to take the wrinkles out of my face.
P.S. He is staying till tomorrow WOOHOO.
Song for the day reflects on the P.S.


Tuesday 17 April 2007

Critical Rave

The Years hottest film, to hit cinema, according to the critics



The Critics have said this movie will flop do you agree???

How Do You Stop A Speeding Train, That Has No Brakes


How do you stop that speeding train that has no brakes?, By having an msn conversation and talking more on a beach at stupid 'o' clock in the evening, and I am still lost in my own head, of what I really should be feeling in this moment in time.

Having nearlly everything you desired and it being taken away, well ok thats probably not the way to put it, however thats wht I see it looking like, Luke wants to start from scratch, which is fair enough!!! Like only seeing each other at weekends like one or two days a week, which I had expected with his work schedule and stuff, being a teacher and all, only texting each other when, we feel a need to.

But the ultimate question of the evening is, Can you start from scratch with a man you have said that three letter phrase to? and we all know what those three words are!!!! we have all used them at least a dozen times in all our life times (And yes ladies and gentlemen, And the undecided you greedy bastards, I actually said that little phrase) but it was also returned.

I agree with the why, he wants to I mean we have a had a whistle stop tour of the relationship world in the space of four days and yes thoughts and jokes about the future have been made, but do i don't get whats going on in his head to see what made it turn from the down right fantastic to the OH MY GOD, let me run in the opposite direction. Maybe I will understand it, once I have finished this litre tube of Ben and Jerry, and Titanic has finished.

But what did come out of it was that in a month's time we will meet up go out for dinner somewhere and look at it and say, can we do this or are we looking at it and making complete tits out of ourselves. We will have to wait and see, Lets take things slow and see where we end up!!!

Anyway I Leo and the TV so I must go and look at the the pretty man, and in honour of the film, todays song is as follows


Enjoy

Blessed Be



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Sunday 15 April 2007

Cloud Nine, Can't Even Hold Me Right Now

The Internet, has many uses nowadays, you can buy food, take out, clothes, cars, and shoes. but did we ever think we could find romance.

Well I have just had one of the nicest weekends, in so long, and it has also been strange, I met a man, and he is truly intriguing, I met him online in the morning and then within, about an hour and a half, he was sat on my sofa drinking coffee as I was getting, ready for a job interview, (also must say that men have the worst timing, half way through brushing my teeth and they knock on the door) however, we sat chatting about quite a few things, and nearly scarred him off because he knows, I have bad taste in men, (well I would have to agree at certain points, look at my track record LOL) anyway went to the interview with a really weird HR manager, who tried to use Harry Potter as a example, although it would help if he knew who Harry Potter was.

So after the interview I got a phone call from Luke (strange man with bad timing) saying that he was on the beach, so I went and sat with him until about 6, talking more about random stuff, this and that, after that he took me to the best ice cream place in Hove, and Paid (First thing that threw me and it has been a very look time since anyone has ever paid for anything, (This doesn't include family), and another offer was did I want to go to London with him for the night, his treat, yes this man does actually exist. So after deliberating, in my head I decided to say yes and go, It was a good night I met his friend Veronica, and by this point, I have really noticed that half hearted deep and meaningful conversations, are constantly being had. Anyway I lose track of what I am saying, Morning comes along and sex happens more than once and Christ he is not bad at it, at all, to the point gone 2 in the afternoon (Saturday) we are still in bed. which was very nice being able to wake up with somebody next to you!! ( I recommend to all ).

After getting home and some msn talk, he is back on my doorstep, with my favourite flowers, in the world (White Roses For you who don't know), and my second surprise was a film, the only bitch of the entire night was I had to go home at the end of it all, I couldn't wake up next to him again.

As it happens Jason was up on Sunday, my big bitching partner, we love the Jason, so according to Jason I have made a good choice he likes this one, he also thinks his ass looks good and according to Luke, I am impressing his friends which Is good. And I think now we have classed ourselves as seeing each other, boyfriend, It feels strange I had three dates in one day, and only been apart from him for a few hours at a time since meeting him, and we are now in a relationship, the quickest start to a relationship I have ever had. And I like it.

Well As It is 3A.M. I had better do some work.

Talk To You All Soon.

Song Of The Weekend.


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Friday 13 April 2007

Thursday Thirteen #3


Thirteen Things about Gay Anthem's
(The Top Thirteen)

1. Village People - YMCA
2. Tina Turner - Simply The Best
3. Cher - If I Could Turn Back Time
4. Gloria Gaynor - I Will Survive
5. ABBA - Dancing Queen
6. Hazel Deen - What A Feeling
7. Whitney Housten - I wanna Dance With Somebody
8. Roy Orbison - Pretty Woman
9. Mad'House - Like A Prayer
10. Shakira - Hips Don't Lie
11. Gerry Halliwel - It's Raining Men
12. Diana Ross - I'm Coming Out
13. ABBA - Gimme Gimme Gimme

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Sunday 1 April 2007

Eurovision

Is this what we really sending to Eurovision, Is it just me or can you see another big fat 0 coming are way??

Its Here


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Friday 30 March 2007

Thursday Thirteen #2


Thirteen of the worst break up lines and there meanings



1…. It's not you, it's me (I am just trying to be nice it is you!)

2.... I think we should see other people (I am already am)

3.... Can we still be friends (I never want to see you again)

4.... We need some time apart (I need a one night stand and I don't want to feel bad about it)

5.... I need to find myself (a couple thousands miles away from you)

6.... We're not going anywhere" (Well, I am, but just not with you)

7.... We need to talk (We all know where that one is going)

8.... I've lied (I have cheated on you)

9.... We want different things (I hate everything you do)

10.... I've found someone else. I'm so sorry. Don't hate me (says it all really)

11.... It's nobody's fault (really its your fault)

12.... I'll call you sometime (yeah losing your number now)

13.... I don't want to hurt you (But I am going to)

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Tuesday 6 March 2007

Fed Up And Bored

OK, I have just spent my weekend, at my mother's and thank god I don't do, it often, I was moaned and bitched at as soon as I got in the door, because of my hair, my ear piercings, I still haven't got a job yet, (Even though I have sent out 76 different applications). My dad, was a moody git, all weekend he hardly said two words to me, until my mum forced, us to speak together, My sister, decided to go and moan at me for not giving her my phone, because hers is dying and then asks me to put in a good word in for her because she wants to go to some party, where she can pissed and stoned on the Saturday night.
However, I did get some sanctuary I was able to go and see my friends, which was like being in heaven (just not the club), so Friday night I went to
The Edge, and met my ex Kev, and his new boyfriend Nigel only reason I went was because, He offered me a bar, which who would turn down, although it came back up almost instantly when they started tickling each others throats, which is bad enough, to watch when you don't know them and they are two good looking people, but heavens of Christ above (not being blasphemes), but he looked about 12 and Kev well he really was just bartered by the ugly tree, and Nigel, started a Bitch Fight (which I have found out that most new boyfriends do, when they meet the ex) and did the arm around them all the time and the look that says hands off, not yours anymore, which after a while I did just have to turn around and say, you are quite willing to have, I really don't want anymore, Thank god, Jason walking in before I had to hit him, ( the annoying 12 year old, Look a like) so anyway my usual night out happened, some guy hit on me and offered me a drink, then didn't stop buying them, with everyone buying my drinks, I spent £20 notes, which is always good, but unfortunately Jason's ride was leaving so unfortunately he had to take flight, leaving me in a bar with lots of men, (Was he stupid?????), in the end my friend Andy grabbed me and decided to take me back to his, (Also sex did not happen, I just Prove this Point to Tizzie).
The morning though I actually wake up feeling a bit worse for wear only to find out, I fell arse over tit, on the pavement the night before. But seeing , my Emily at the station is always good as three hours later I am only leaving to make my way home (And I looked a mess), but it was nice to catch up with her, I love my girls they are the best fag hags a gay man would want, So now finally getting back to the parents, trying to find the invention of coffee, and finding out its all decaf (shoot the man that did it), So finally went to see Tizzie and My Boy (missing him lots and lots) as he came up and sat on my lap and we watched sponge bob, (bless 5 year old, BTW he isn't actually mine I have just secretly adopted him), so anyway me and Tiz catch up on our gossip, and in walks the pink lady herself Amy, so we all get into one of those group discussions, and around comes the subject of men, and she mentions again her cousin (Who I have finally seen a pic of WOW he's is hot), and her Hen night is going to be lots of fun, as we are going gaying it, which is always good, some of the ideas she has for it are just damn right crazy and hoping Amy comes up soon as I will take her and her cousin Gaying it in Brighton, I will have to drag Tiz and Niel up as well, as I miss my friends lots.

Anyway It Is 3:30 A.M. I have to be up at 7 so going to grab some sleep, before I have to deal with a 12 year old again WOOHOO!!!

The Song this time is one I have just Heard

Thursday 1 March 2007

Thursday Thirteen


Thirteen Of The Worst Chat Up Lines



1…. Did It Hurt....(Did What Hurt?)....When you feel from heaven

2.... Grab your coat love.......You've just pulled

3.... Baby you must be tired, because you have been running through my mind all day long

4.... Do you believe in love at first sight, or shall I walk by again?

5.... If I told you that you had a nice body would you hold it against me?

6.... Are those space pants? cause your ass is out of this world

7.... Here I am! Ok, you have two wishes left...

8.... I hope you know CPR, because you take my breath away

9.... Are you a parking ticket? (What?) You got fine written all over you

10.... Stop, Drop, and Roll baby 'cause you're on fire!

11.... If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put U and I together

12.... Hi, I'm Mr. Right. Someone said you were looking for me

13.... Hey kitten, how about spending some of your nine lives with me.


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The Long Weekend Away

I went away to Devon for the weekend, with my friend Justie and I had a good time, don't get me wrong it was nice, but I missed my clubs, my half naked men dancing around looking like complete muppits, when they have had way to much to drink, and kissing some random hot guy, although I did have my share of fun.
The sex every morning and evening, was good but fuck me, he wasn't blessed when it came to that, I just didn't feel excited enough to get into it the mood and after four days of this, with no where to run, I am going out of my mind, so to compensate I decided to go for the bottle of vodka that was in Val's cupboard.
Also as much as I love Val she is a very good fag hag, for me most people over the age of 30, and as much as I don't have a problem with this at all believe me (As I have dated and nearlly married the over 30's), it isn't my complete idea on how to spend a weekend, and when justie starts to get close, enough to make me want to gag, and says things like, I would move to Brighton for you, I think at that moment I wanted, and did run out the house and had to smooke about three fags, in the space of five minutes, as much as I like relationships, pushing and hard heavy stuff like that when you are only FRIENDS is never the thing to do, we were always and and always will be friends with benefits. This is all I see it as, and he knows this, always has done, any who we went to the The Hampshire Boulevard on the sunday night, ans I for once got way to drunk and started to sing my favourite song The Calling - Whereever you will go, and did it pretty well, I might add.

Anyway that is my Bitching about my weekend done.

Catch You All Soon

Song Of The Day






Friday 23 February 2007

Wednesday 21 February 2007

I Went On A Real Live Date well Dinner But I can Dream

Today I actually went on a real live date and, found that he is one of the random blokes that means what he says, and he paid for dinner (Chinese My Favourite LOL) which is all well and good, but even when he was telling me about his past and how he has been on TV and was A Milky Bar kid, and dated a boy band member (that isn't out), worked with McFly, Girls Aloud, He is also a High Up Director for a bank and is a paramedic, you would even want to date his mother as she is a high court judge unfortunately I kid you not he actually is Prince Fucking Charming!!!!!!!!! Or as I like to call it, he handed you his shit in a bag and it really did smell like roses, because as we all know mainly from experience, that some guys spin you lines, that you so know what they are saying is complete bullshit, but they are also trying to make you think that what they are smelling actually is roses.

I even found out that all my ex's are all happy with new relationships, this goes to Kev (who hands you shit and tries to make you think they are roses), his new boyfriend Nigel has moved in and they are all happy, and Nigel treated him so well on Valentines Day, they went out for a meal he got Kev Diamonds (Or some sort of jewellery, stopped listening after they said they were really "Happy" Together ) and I should come and stay with them because his business is going really well, and all the shit he told me, really was shit, this is never good to learn when you were supposed to be staying with him. My valentines day consisted of the usual.


  1. Bottle Of Wine Or Two (Fuck it lets say four who am I trying to kid?????)
  2. DVD's
  3. Long Bath With Bubbles
  4. To Many Tubes of Ben And Jerry's that you are going to be spending the next six weeks at the gym to try and get the weight back off.
  5. Sofa with big Cushions
  6. Duvet With me in it watching the many DVD's

Also today I was walking home from my date trying to get hold of the princess, as I needed some female/lesbian/mother/fag hag/butch/straight advice about why I really wanted to ask the guy I went out on a date with and never did!!!! Come on this is so not me, I really do just grab the bulls balls (try saying that three times fast) and give them a good squeeze, when I saw a bloke who I used to date looking absolutely fantastic sent one of those, we haven't spoken in ages, did things work out for the best e-mails, yes people you guessed it Richard was walking with friends to somewhere probably Revenge (Cheap Drink Night) and he looked good, and I am talking the real good, the one you would have in a heart beat. ( I ask A Question, why when you see your ex do they always and I mean always look better than you do?????)

Well People as It is 3 a.m. I think I better get some sleep I am up at six WOOHOO

The Song for the day is:-