- Does what you read vary by the season? For instance, Do you read different kinds of books in the summer than the winter? Not really I tend to be a romance kind of guy or psychological thriller
- If so, do you break it down by genre, length of book, or...? doesn't matter really it's a good blub I will probablt just read it anyway LOL
Thursday, 26 April 2007
Booking Through Thursday
Booking Through Thursday
Heaven Through Me, And Hell Just Toke Me Whole
What would you do if the guy you were seeing,after you said that 4 letter word, said lets take a break a step back, and we see if we can get there, then a couple of days later you look him, up online and you see that he is already in another relationship, with a bloke I never knew existed, even though I saw it and I read it, I could read it. But as it sunk in, my heart hit the floor, and I had to stop myself from being really sick. I haven't felt like that in years, even now looking back on that time, I still get the feeling of falling.
Even approaching the subject with him, he could even say it to me then, just gave me excuses why he couldn't, tell me, which hurts even more. Since then I haven't spoken to him since, although I had to phone tizzie, and hit a few things really hard, and nearlly broke the kitchen counter.
So since I have then I have worked really hard, and not done alot else until, my ex sends me messages, saying do you want to meet up for dinner and a night out, so we shall were I end up.
God What am I doing???????
Even approaching the subject with him, he could even say it to me then, just gave me excuses why he couldn't, tell me, which hurts even more. Since then I haven't spoken to him since, although I had to phone tizzie, and hit a few things really hard, and nearlly broke the kitchen counter.
So since I have then I have worked really hard, and not done alot else until, my ex sends me messages, saying do you want to meet up for dinner and a night out, so we shall were I end up.
God What am I doing???????
Thursday Thirteen #4
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2.... I love you mother more than you. 3.... I slept with your best friends. 4.... We need to talk. 5.... (Two weeks in) Your sister coming up and says "when you getting married" 6.... (A month in) Lets have a baby. 7.... Do you want to meet my wife? 8.... My Friends hate you! 9.... You look like Bridget Jones in the morning. (Yes people have said this) 10.... I don't want a relationship, then you find out, a couple of days later he is in another one. 11.... I want you to tie me up. (This only works in certain relationships) 12.... NAGGING. This should never be done in a relationship. 13.... I think we should see a therapist. |
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Friday, 20 April 2007
If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time
If You could turn back the hands of time, would you undo, what was, to change what is????
Well Wednesday night, after waiting half an hour, and having to listen to blokes obviously having sex, problem was the fact that you could probably here them for space, and by the sound of it, it wasn't enjoyable. So anyway he turns up, and we drive to the beach again, although this is the unhappy part of the beach, where all our serious conversations and home truths come out.
So he is trying to tell me what he wants, and like a true man, (Yes we all know he is gay, but even we can have straight manly moments), he is making no sense what so ever, all I can feel is my heart sinking to the floor, and my head going I told you so, which by the is not a good feeling. However, I finally get part of the point he is trying to make, he wants to go out meet new people, go on dates, go up to random men in a bar and ask them, if they want a drink, and he could do it with a guy in his life, or relationship in his life. (Confused, well guess what so am I still), but I do understand, and I know where I fit into that whole life style, I sit on the side lines and watch him, do it, and then try if I can protect him, when it gets ugly, because of him being in relationships most of his gay life, I am not sure he really knows whats out there that could bite him on the ass (And not in a good way).
So after this conversation we decide to head back well he drove, and said i will text you soon, which most of the time that's code for I am never going to see you again. So I got the new version of "it's not you it's me", also the new version of "Can we still be friends". Just to top that, when I got in I was moaned at leaving my straighteners, on the drawers to cool down, and my laptop being on the table, when Life loves you it really does have a way of showing it. don't you just love it. LOL
Song of the Day
Well Wednesday night, after waiting half an hour, and having to listen to blokes obviously having sex, problem was the fact that you could probably here them for space, and by the sound of it, it wasn't enjoyable. So anyway he turns up, and we drive to the beach again, although this is the unhappy part of the beach, where all our serious conversations and home truths come out.
So he is trying to tell me what he wants, and like a true man, (Yes we all know he is gay, but even we can have straight manly moments), he is making no sense what so ever, all I can feel is my heart sinking to the floor, and my head going I told you so, which by the is not a good feeling. However, I finally get part of the point he is trying to make, he wants to go out meet new people, go on dates, go up to random men in a bar and ask them, if they want a drink, and he could do it with a guy in his life, or relationship in his life. (Confused, well guess what so am I still), but I do understand, and I know where I fit into that whole life style, I sit on the side lines and watch him, do it, and then try if I can protect him, when it gets ugly, because of him being in relationships most of his gay life, I am not sure he really knows whats out there that could bite him on the ass (And not in a good way).
So after this conversation we decide to head back well he drove, and said i will text you soon, which most of the time that's code for I am never going to see you again. So I got the new version of "it's not you it's me", also the new version of "Can we still be friends". Just to top that, when I got in I was moaned at leaving my straighteners, on the drawers to cool down, and my laptop being on the table, when Life loves you it really does have a way of showing it. don't you just love it. LOL
Song of the Day
Wednesday, 18 April 2007
Rabbit Caught In Head Lights
What would you say the worst thing that could happen to you, when you and the guy you are seeing have sort of just sorted things out, and I don't really know how they did, it just sort of happened, I got told if he starts to freak out just to tell him to shut up and move on. which yes I would but even still I am now I am a Heartless Bitch, but I am not careless, so I would have some issues telling them what to do, in the messing with there emotions side of life.
I also gave him a secret today that, also by writing it here I am also announcing to the world, that I have never not once done any form of PDA (Public Displays of Affection) with anyone, I am come across as confident and able to handle anything in the world but I have never done that, well until Friday then, I really came out of the shell with no neon sign and and did the whole walking down the middle of Brighton, holding a guys hand, kissing in public and lying on the beach, and lying with someone. Which at the time made me look around and see who else really did what we were and do you know apart from the lying down an the beach thing, I saw less than a dozen couples of all sexuality's doing the exact same thing, so what does this say are we to scared to go out into the open and let people see who we are really with? or is that we are not comfortable with everybody watching the close couple walking down the street? Also noticing that nearly nine out of ten people will look at a couple holding hands, kissing in public, and want to know why they can't do it.
Also I have majorly digressed, I truly had a Kodak moment today, as the man in question (You know who you are) and I got caught, having sex in the living room, which would have not been good, its one thing for people you know to see you do it, but its also worse if it's a member of the family about to walk through the door and catch you in "the act" (Trying to be polite), so his face really did look like a bunny caught in head lights, so after he quick dressing and the small pleasantries he fled, going commando of course as he forgot to put his boxers back on.
Although I did get reminded today of a saying in which we should all follow, but all know we never will.
I also gave him a secret today that, also by writing it here I am also announcing to the world, that I have never not once done any form of PDA (Public Displays of Affection) with anyone, I am come across as confident and able to handle anything in the world but I have never done that, well until Friday then, I really came out of the shell with no neon sign and and did the whole walking down the middle of Brighton, holding a guys hand, kissing in public and lying on the beach, and lying with someone. Which at the time made me look around and see who else really did what we were and do you know apart from the lying down an the beach thing, I saw less than a dozen couples of all sexuality's doing the exact same thing, so what does this say are we to scared to go out into the open and let people see who we are really with? or is that we are not comfortable with everybody watching the close couple walking down the street? Also noticing that nearly nine out of ten people will look at a couple holding hands, kissing in public, and want to know why they can't do it.
Also I have majorly digressed, I truly had a Kodak moment today, as the man in question (You know who you are) and I got caught, having sex in the living room, which would have not been good, its one thing for people you know to see you do it, but its also worse if it's a member of the family about to walk through the door and catch you in "the act" (Trying to be polite), so his face really did look like a bunny caught in head lights, so after he quick dressing and the small pleasantries he fled, going commando of course as he forgot to put his boxers back on.
Although I did get reminded today of a saying in which we should all follow, but all know we never will.
DANCE
As though no one is watching you.
SING
As though no one can hear you.
LOVE
As though you have never been hurt before.
LIVE
As though heaven is on earth.
Anyway at gone 3 A.M. I must try and sleep, otherwise people are going to have to get their irons out, just to take the wrinkles out of my face.
P.S. He is staying till tomorrow WOOHOO.
Song for the day reflects on the P.S.
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